Nick glanced up to the clock hanging at his private studio and frowned. He had been here all day and the song was still not finished. Starring at the chicken-scrawled handwriting of his and the small doodles of music notes around it, he sighed.

"Oh man... Do I have to spend the night here?" he said to himself and took a sip of ice-blend chocolate from his cup.

After sitting on his butt and starring at the pieces of papers printed from his floppy disk with the 'supposed' lyrics for a long time, he stood up and went out of the studio to take a breather.

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Nick's POV
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Wonder what is Kevin doing now? Maybe he is trying his hands out at new recipes again? Or having a cozy time with Kristin? No... He said 'Never' yesterday to me as in 'Never leave me'. So it cannot be.

Maybe he is trying to talk to her now? Kristin is a really wonderful women and I really could not even picture Kevin telling her that he had fall for another person. And it is a guy. And worse, it is me, Nick.

I wonder how she will react. Yell at Kevin? Throw anything that is within her reach at him? Kill him? Gosh, God forbid that. She is an understanding woman and way much better than Mandy, who only knows how to scream names at me. Maybe she will just sit down and have a heart to heart talk with Kevin? Or maybe now, she is wishing Kevin and me good luck to our future?

Someone please let me know what will happen so that I can just quit thinking.

I figure that this is probably not a good way. I cannot just keep imagining things here or I will go crazy. Maybe I should call up Kevin now? Maybe it is a good idea.

I went back into the studio and grab my cell phone from my backpack. I quickly hit Kevin's speed dial on my keypad and waited patiently for Kevin's sweet voice to come on.

".................."


No Kevin's sweet voice, only the stupid and annoying sound of the phone ringing. After I hit the redial button for the third time, I finally give up.

I sigh and put my cell phone back into my backpack. Walking towards the table fill with pieces of incomplete lyrics, I groan. But then, I kick myself for groaning. I am now writing this song for Kevin and I shall be serious and concentrating on it.

"Stop groaning, Carter!"

I give myself a fierce yell and was actually startle by it. I laugh and begin to wonder why am I starting to act so much like a dork. I sit back onto the hard and uncomfortable chair and tidy up the table.

"Okay... Now, this stack is incomplete lyrics. And this one is one-liners. And this is discarded."

I put them in three different categories and reach for a fresh new sheet of paper. I start by picking out from the incomplete songs, which I am likely to work on, and then throw the others over to the discarded section. And somehow, I still pick that song out from all the incomplete lyrics, 'I Promise You (With Everything I Am)'.

I smile. So this song is going to be able to make it to the album after all. I go through the pile of one-liners, picking the good ones out and discard the rest.

And there. I'm done.

I push all the now 'useless' papers into the rubbish bin and grab my pen from my backpack.

Kevin give this pen to me on my 19th birthday. I still remember when I open up the present like a very excited child only to find a 'cheap looking' pen in it. I was whining for the rest of the day to Kevin and he look a bit sad. He knows that I have never completed education to a 'standard' level and by giving me a pen, he wants me to learn what I have never learn in school through penning my own songs. Since I left school to become a singer, it all made complete sense. But I just did not come to realize it at that time.

The theory is pretty weird but I somehow understand. He wants me to learn about life through writing. Maybe that is how I develop my writing habits. Erm... Rambling type of writing to be more specific.

Holding his pen is like feeling him holding my hand as I write. I am certain that I am not going crazy or anything. It is true. Maybe our bond has already existed for a long time. But then, you still cannot blame me if I didn't discover it sooner.

Push them to Brian! When Kevin is first introduced to the group, I am really afraid of him. His looks could kill. And I do not mean the 'handsome' type of killer looks, even though he obviously did have.


It is the heavy badass air that is surrounding him. And even when I get over that period, Brian would use Kevin to scare me whenever I did something wrong.

'You'd better don't let Kevin find out or he will beat you.'

'Really?'

'Yah, and so you'd better pray hard.'

I know that he is only joking but to a boy who is still young and learning, what do you expect? But it is because of this, Kevin's image as a father becomes clearer. He tries to guide me along all these years like my second father without fail. And maybe it is somewhere between that line, my fear has disappear and I develop a special bond with him.

I stare down at my piece of blank paper and realize that my thoughts have gone wandering down the memory lane again. I chuckle and clear my thoughts, wanting to do nothing now but to finish this special song for the special person in my life.

I take some of the one-liners and group them together to form part of the songs and re-read them. Seems perfect. Now, I just need to make some amendments here... And here... Great, done! I get up and go to the control room to work on the music part. This part is not difficult as I am more 'music-wise' than 'lyrics-wise' and so within half an hour, I have the whole song out.

The music is fill with so much love and emotion. Aaahhh... Is this the sound of love? I chuckle and make a mock puking sound.

"Well, Carter, you just got to stop all this mushy stuff or you are going to become the next Kevin." I said to myself as I giggle.

But I am still not satisfy with it. Maybe I will change some of the parts when inspiration hits me again.

Gosh, I am tired... Now what time is it? I look up at the clock and it is already past one o'clock in the morning. Oh man, mom is going to nag at me for coming home at this hour. I get up from my seat and pack up my stuff before leaving the studio.

As I am locking the studio's door, my cell phone suddenly beep a signal. I jump and quickly lock the door before reaching into my backpack for the cell phone. Somehow, I have a feeling that it is Kevin.

"Hello?"

"It's Kevin." I smile. I know it must be him.

"Boo, I called just now-"

"Yeah, I know."

I raised my eyebrows a little, "You know? Why didn't you pick it up?"

"Kristin... She's here just now."

My face fell.

"Oh..."

"We are over, Nick-" And this very second, my face has brighten up which is bright enough to light up the whole universe.

"She cried and all that stuff and she says that she respect my decision. But she is really heartbroken, Nicky. I felt like a total bastard for doing that." I could hear his voice is breaking up and my heart wrench.

"Boo, listen. If you feel that she's really the one for you, please go back to her. I don't want you to feel guilty when you're with me-"

"No... Nick. I love you. It's just too hard to... Nick, please understand. You're the only one whom I wanted and I never love someone so deep before..."

I smile to myself and feel that my eyes is now a little watery. I rub my eyes and said, "I understand, Kevin. I do. And I love you..." After saying out that word, I could almost feel Kevin's smile appearing on his face.

"Nick?"

"Yup?"

"Meet me at 12pm at the newspaper stand near my house tomorrow."

"Why?"

"I wanted to bring you to a place."

"All right. Then I will see you tomorrow..." I want to ask him what place it is but I am too tired to think of other things. I let out a yawn as a car zooms by.

"Nicky, aren't you at home?"

"No... I just came out of the studio and you called."

"God, it's already past one in the morning... Now you go straight home and down onto your bed."

I chuckle at his speech tone, "Aaww... Stop sounding like my mom!"

"I'm not! Okay, whatever and don't let bed bugs bite."

'I can't believe you said that...' I thought.

"And you heard that right, I said don't let bed bugs bite."

My mouth drop open. "You knew what I am thinking?"

"Why not? I knew everything about you, Nicky."

I giggled. "Okay, sleep tight and keep me in your dreams. Bye."

"I will and keep me in yours... Bye."

I wait for Kevin to hang up first before I did but after five seconds, I can still hear his breathing against the phone.

"Kev?"

"Yeah?"

"PUT DOWN THE PHONE AND GO SLEEP!"

"But I am waiting for you to put down first before I did..."

Oh man, this guy is 'so' me. "Alright, we will count to 3 and put down the phone together, okay?"

"Okay."

"1...2...3..." The line is finally hang and I chuckle.

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