"We'll go down from here." Nick said to Kevin, who was still struggling with his oxygen tank.

"You got a problem with that?" Nick asked.

"Haven't did this for a long time. I just need to get used to it."

"Okay... If you feel that anything is wrong, you must let me know, alright?" Nick said.

Kevin nodded his head. He liked the way Nick was always giving him small commands. It made him feel wanted and needed by Nick.

While they were under the sea, a group of fish happens to swim by and Nick excitedly grabs onto Kevin's arm and pointed to the direction where the fishes are coming from.

Kevin looked at Nick and smiled, never forgetting the look on Nick's excited expression whenever he saw fishes or any weird stuff under the sea. That was also part of the reason that Kevin had fallen for Nick. The child in Nick made him felt younger whenever he was with him. And the kind of free spirit, which only a real child possesses, can still be found in him despite of his hectic life.

Kevin could not help but to admire him.

Nick let go of his arm and swam towards the group of fishes and managed to grab hold of one. He carefully guided it over to Kevin and attempt to make the fish to kiss him. Kevin makes a get-that-away-from-my-face look and Nick grinned cheekily. Then, he let go of the fish.

Nick felt a hand pulling him and turn to look at Kevin. He motioned him to return to the surface of the sea and Nick followed. When they reached the surface, Nick was wondering what was wrong when the next thing he knew; Kevin's mouth covered his.

Kevin kissed Nick ever so lightly on his lips as if afraid of breaking them. Nick was stunned but he returned the kiss. He felt so happy when Nick did not pulled away and instead, returning the kiss.

But the happiness was short. Nick jerked himself away from Kevin and began to swim to the yacht. Kevin was shocked and he knew that Nick must have regretted it.

Nick went back up to his yacht, took off all his gears and locked himself in the small bar. Kevin followed behind and went up to the yacht, taking off his gears before pounding his fists onto the door.

"Nicky, please... Open the door and let me explain... Nicky..." Kevin yelled.

Nick was sitting on the couch and trying to absorb what had just happened. "No. I am not what I am thinking now." the words repeated itself in his brain, "I am not gay. I do not like him. It was just an accident. It was."

Out of the blue, the door swung open. Kevin stood in the doorway for a while before walking in. He found Nick sitting on the couch in deep thoughts.

Kevin was hurt.

He had thought that action would at least meant something to Nick. Kevin knew it was no accident or else Nick would not have responded to it.

"What do you want?" Nick snapped at him.

Tears formed in Kevin's eyes and the words that came from Nick's mouth went through his heart like a dart.

"It has to mean something or else you wouldn't have respond to the kiss."

Nick did not say anything and looked away from him.

Kevin felt his heart drop.

He cursed himself on his earlier action but he knew that there was no turning back. He knew he should not have done it considering Nick had just separated from his girlfriend.

And the one last thing Kevin did not thought of when he kiss Nick was, 'Will Nick thought of him as gay, got disgusted and then shut him out of his life forever?' Kevin could not bear the thought and slowly began his sentences again.

"I know it is wrong but I couldn't help it. You have no idea how I have gone through this... Being around you and not able to hold you and kiss you... If I know that it will hurt you so deep, I would rather die than to let you get hurt."

And with that, Kevin ran out of the bar.

Nick sank back onto the couch.

He knew that deep down inside, he loved him. Not as a brother or a friend, but a lover. Nick does not even know when his feelings for Kevin had developed and vice-versa. He does not have the courage to face it. What would the other guys think? And what would their families, their fans and media think? They would resent Kevin and him. And probably banished them from their lives forever. He did not want that to happen. They would not understand what he was thinking.


He was not a gay. He knew it. He had several girlfriends before but whenever Kevin was around him, he would have butterflies in his stomach. That action was only trigger when HE was around, not any his girlfriends.

As Nick silently thought about the things that are going to happen, he heard a loud splash.

"Damn, don't tell me-"

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