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[Chapter Eight]
[Author's Note: Not to insult anyone's intelligence but POV means Point Of View. Just in case if anyone ask. :)]
------------- Nick's POV ------------- Maybe it is because of our confession. It is a great relief to finally understand what I actually want in my life and for a while; I discover that I had grown. I had grown more mature to be more specific and not in size. Well, maybe I do. My size has been quite an issue lately that it almost kills me and I did not even have the courage to go online to visit websites dedicated to me.  In fear of those banners that are made by the fans to stop people saying that I am gaining weight. Nice pretty animated banners that are constantly reminding me of my ugly size. And people thinks I have been stuffing down three times of what I eat everyday. Like real. The caused of my size is she. Mandy is out of my life and it is only like a yesterday matter when we just met. Our meeting is a mistake, a terrible one. And my real true love that is only within reach from me took me nearly six years of my life to find out. I gave myself a good smack on the head for that. Maybe he'll bring the best of me out again with his 'healthy cooking'? Hope so. Most people would probably regard this relationship as a gay relationship or just a fling, but to me it is a special kind of love. It has to be something more because what I am feeling inside has surpassed the stage of gay love. So pure and so real. Even more intense compared to a normal boy-girl relationship. A love that will withstand time and carry on forever. I giggled at my thoughts. We had just started this less than four hours ago and I am thinking this far already. Oh, to be in love. But as the ugly truth sink into my brain, my smile fade away. Maybe AJ and Howie would not mind but on the worse thought, Brian would probably kill the both of us and then commit suicide. I swallowed hard at the thought of it. He is just too religious. Too religious. One is his cousin. The cousin whom he had grown up with ever since his birth and had been the best and serious leader of the group. The other is his best friend. The one person whom in Brian's eyes is always a kid who only knows Nintendo and thinking what pranks he wants to pull the next second. Brian could never ever envision the both of us together. Not even is his worse dream. When the day comes for Brian to find out, I would be preparing to see him taking over God's duty. The inspiration for composing a song is strong for me today. Gosh, something just hits me. Okay, damn, where is my disk? I got up from my seat and dove onto my bed. Lying on my stomach, I lifted up the bed sheet, which is dragging onto the floor, and reach my hand under the bed. Ah ha! I pull out the small box and open it, taking that translucent green floppy disk out. It has been quite a while I write. Nonetheless, even though I would rather spend time on Nintendo, drawing or pig out on junk food, when inspiration hits you, you just got to get down to work. This green floppy had followed me around for nearly 2 years. My songs and little snippets and my usual ramblings are all in here. But when we are doing 'Millennium', I did not contribute any of my work to it. Low self-esteem is high on my profile during then because of Mandy. Shit. I don't want to think about her now. I insert the disk into the drive and open my saved works. I scanned through the list of songs which I had composed, mostly incomplete though. Hmm... Can't work on this, this one's too cheesy, maybe this? I click on the file name 'I Promise You (With Everything I Am)'. Once the file is open, I sigh. This song originated from Mandy. I mean, I wrote this because of her. When we first started out, I thought it was going to be a forever kind of thing. But it was never complete because she started to... I do not want to go to that territory again. I got to stop thinking about her. I stare at the incomplete lyrics, which is only the part of the chorus. I cannot even start the beginning or find an ending to this song. This is typical me. As I heard Kevin's singing coming from the kitchen below, I smiled. Maybe he is going to be the beginning and ending of my everything. Maybe. No, it must be. ------------- Kevin's POV ------------- How weird everything has been going along now. Just a while ago, I was still thinking if Nick would ever know of my love for him and now I am in his kitchen, preparing 'our' meals. Who would knew that things would all turned out to be so perfect? Maybe it would not be very perfect, but we are going to try. There's no easy path to happiness and I know for sure that the route we have taken is going to be a hard one. My brows sew together whenever Brian and the guys came to my mind. I am pretty sure that they might hate me. Especially Brian. I know Howie and AJ, they are really cool with this kind of relationship because I have actually tried to talk to them before. I pop out this question out of the blue, asking them if they are against this kind of relationship. They are surprised at my sudden eagerness to know but of course, they did not ask any further. But I still can't imagine the look on their face if they ever knew. Brian can now be considered as my biggest fear. Only God knows what he is going to do when he finds out. Probably come swearing at me and then put a gun on my head. But I really doubt that he will do this but I will never know. And Nick's parents too. They entrusted their son to me and let me lead him along this difficult road and yet I stole him away from them. My face fell at the thought of it. The names that they are going to holler at me are going to be so hard for me to accept and I might just decide to end my life. But no. For Nick and myself and our future, I believe we can make it through. Enough of the unhappy thoughts. Moving into a happier topic, if that boy is going to eat junk food in front of me again, I am going to spank him hard. Oops, my mind is going kinky again. Maybe I should drop by his house more often, better yet, everyday, and cook for him. Boy, he is gaining pounds from the massive amount of junk food like no one cares. And why is AJ still looking like he has anorexia? Maybe it's in the genes? If so, Nick, you're so deprived from having a good body. But I'm going to change that now and make you the sexiest man ever alive by stuffing you with all the good ingredients. Kiss the junk food goodbye! Wait a second. I was voted as the sexiest of the group. But I can share the title, can't I? I laughed and continued my singing, though I'm aware that I am acting like a dork now. Whatever. I'm in a good mood. Super good mood equals to no seriousness from me. So why care? So long as Nicky likes- Shit. No, I don't mean Nicky likes shit. I lifted up the pot cover and it isn't a good sign. There goes the soup. Damn, the price you pay for thinking a pretty boy. Okay, maybe I should not curse. I'm in a good mood. I'm in a- What is that smell? Oh no. The steak is ruined. Great. So I guess you get what you want after all, Carter. I took my apron off and hook it on the chair. And before I went up to the room and informed him that my mission of a healthy meal is ruined, I better throw these away first. He would definitely laugh his butt off at the sight of the steak and that is the last thing I need now. God, I cannot imagine I have to face junk food again. But hey, it is with Nick. The one and only which I can now proudly call, my Nick. [Author's Note: The funny things going through people's mind, huh? I know that song is not written by Nick but it will be in this story.] |
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